One week from today I will turn 40.
I’ve heard it helps to say it out loud, so I’m choosing to do so in print.
So, what does one do in the final week of one’s 30’s? I’ve never been much of a long-term-goal setter, so I don’t have a list of things I’ve hoped to achieve by this point. I’m sure I should feel more guilty about this lack of conventional wisdom, but the fact is, I’m actually a bit grateful. I don’t have the imagination to dream up the kinds of things God has brought about in my life. I could have never, ever dreamt up an accurate description of the man that I have married, for example. Never. Knowing me and my rule-following tendencies, if I had put things on paper (like, “what kind of husband I’ll have”), I would have been conflicted to the point of near implosion when face-to-face with the things, people, and plans that are now a part of who I am.
That said…. what does am I doing in the final week of my 30’s?
Helping my daughter with homework
Planning several worship experiences
Rehearsing with musicians
Attending kids’ Christmas program at school
Hosting a staff Christmas party for our kids’ school
Attending the birthday party my husband is planning for me
Making plans for our son’s birthday party
Squeezing in some form of Christmas shopping
Squeezing in some form of birthday shopping for our boy
Hosting our church staff Christmas party
and finally… the normal food/laundry/cleaning stuff of any given week
Dang. I let the list sit for a moment. Here are some things I didn’t even think to include:
Read and reflect on the story of Jesus coming to earth
Pray for the people around me
Pray for the people around the world that we have committed to pray for
Pray for opportunities to serve others
Lead our kids in thinking differently about the Christmas season
I want to be more about the green list than the red. Regardless of Christmas or birthdays or the things I feel obligated to do, that is what I want to be about. I do not always hit that mark, which is probably the giant unspoken disappointment I have for myself. I should have this under control by 40, right? So. This week. I want to do the green list while walking through the red.
This is me Setting A Goal (mark it on your calendars). One week at a time. How about you?