Who am I without God?. There have been many times that I’ve been blown away by stories of how people (adults) have been changed by God revealing truth about himself to them. It’s amazing to hear the ‘before’ and ‘after’ stories. I believe they are real. I believe that it is only God Himself who can truly transform a life.
My story is a bit less notable, as I was a rule-following, quiet, studious 11-year-old living in a Christian family when I decided to dedicate my life to following Jesus. I had no striking ‘before’ and ‘after’ pictures. So, as an adult, I asked God once to show me what I would be like without a connection to Him. This is not a question to ask flippantly.
Without realizing I was beginning to live out the answer, I slipped into an attitude of criticism and bitterness. I found fault with everyone, including myself. I have a natural tendency to believe that making and following plans is more important than the journey…. perfection is more important than compassion…. and at every moment, there are 14 things I ‘should’ have done differently, or ‘should’ be doing differently. Run with that combination toward the dark side, and you get a guilt-ridden, control freak.
This went on for a while. I’m guessing I wasn’t very fun to live with. Somehow, I still possessed enough self-awareness to recognize this was not, you know, a good way to live. I took a week to pray specifically about whatever it was that was happening. God smacked me around with several Big Truths in that week.
Day one: Bam. THIS is who I would be without Him. (I asked for this one)
Day two: Being ‘with Him’ just means being with Him. Like, every-day acknowledgement of His presence.
Day three through six: See? Reading the Bible, praying, asking God to open my eyes to His presence… this makes it possible to use my ‘powers’ for good.
Day seven: Wow! This is amazing! People need to KNOW about this! That would be the entire message of Truth in a week’s experience. We need God to really live. We need God to discover who we have been created to be. And when we discover that, we are compelled to tell other people about it. Because really living is better than just barely making it.
Why do I write about this today? Because I’ve been reminded of this journey this week. It’s been like a little tiny refresher course in the ways of the Great Truth Smackdown. Which is good… not necessarily easy… but good, and right.
So… my question to you…. do you know who you are without God? do you know what it’s like to be ‘with’ God?